You are completely forgiven, Durin. In fact, I believe that I forgave you a long time ago, since I had to actually read the Saruman topic to see what you were talking about
I really appreciate your humbleness and willingness to post this. You definitely have some integrity. You said in the Saruman topic that you were a Strong Christian. And now you say your beliefs have altered slightly? May I ask, what do you believe now? If nothing else, I urge you not to move from your Christian beliefs.
Well... many things can happen over the course of a few months, if not a year or so. And while I was a 'Christian' I believed in this Doctrine right here:
"Perseverance (or preservation) of the saints is also known as "eternal security." The word saints is used in the Biblical sense to refer to all who are set apart by God, not in the technical sense of one who is exceptionally holy, canonized, or in heaven (see Saint). The doctrine asserts that, since God is sovereign and his will cannot be frustrated by humans or anything else, those whom God has called into communion with himself will continue in faith until the end. Those who apparently fall away either never had true faith to begin with or will return.
So that means that I technically was never a Christian and Christ never accepted me into the Kingdom of God, nor never wrote my book in the Book of Life, according to Calvinists... and that's a saddening thought, and I was a Calvinist. So, according to my own
doctrine, all that time spent 'praising' the 'Lord' was utterly wasted and the 'Lord Himself' was probably scoffing from His own throne. When you think of it... my name was never in the Book of Life, so I was asking for God to be my savior and believed he was... yet in reality I was murmuring to myself, so would that make myself God? I should think so in my own little world ;) .
Anyhow, all above was just hypothetical, that is how my still Christian friends see it. And no, my religion is not "Confucianism" Or anything of the like. Confucianism is really just moral ethics, based on the principles on what today is called Humanism. My beliefs switch on and off from Agnostic and Atheism, but as I said, Atheism has just come to be a nasty term lately
. So that's that Beren, I neither favor nor dislike any religion, the only thing I don't
like is Christians, Mormons, Islams, etc. coming up to my door with little pamphlets.
These days I find Religion to merely be a setback to Technology, Science, and ethical values. With Religion your worldview is set and anything that goes against the Bible or whatever may be your religious book, you deny, you close the option that it could be correct. For example, in the 1600's or so, all the Roman Catholics persecuted Galileo for his beliefs, it was only until later they came to their senses. And even today religion can blind you, it can stop you from what you're a truly capable of.
However... this is a biased opinion, most likely... Religion has done much good for the world, such as charities, mission trips, etc. That's just not my part anymore.